Its a long time since I am wearing this facade
Its such a long time that I even forgot that its just mask
In my conscious oblivion I steadily accepted it as my face
I was glad that I belonged somewhere and was not left out
I liked observing the people and their lives
If world’s a stage than I am the happy audience
I watched the joy, sadness, excitement, jealousy, love,hatred
I watched it all closely and intently for quite a long time
I saw it, the departing of loved at stations and airports
I saw the tearful departure of friends for future
I saw the love buds growing and blooming
I saw the young guy trying to make up for the fight to his girlfriend
I saw the love wrecking apart the lives of loves
I saw the life pass by
Life which was mine, it was just passing away
Lately have I realized that I am the only audience
So engrossed was I in watching that I forgot to live
And that I am letting my life getting blown away
Suddenly it has fallen onto me with a great thud
The realization that what am I trying to be or get?
Suddenly I get aware of the facade that I am wearing
It isn’t me
Whom am I hiding from?
What is it that I am running from?
Why have I turned my vibgyor spectrum into shades of gray?
Why is it that I have dimmed my resilient brilliance to a dusk light?
Why am I letting me be just an observer?
Why am I letting my seasons pass away?